March Update

24 March 2022

Welcome to my monthly blog update. Yes, the rumours are indeed true, almost nothing has been changed, added or improved! You are very welcome. I had expected progress to be relatively slow, but I'm just oh so overwhelmed with everything from school to my classes and my courses and my homework and also a very unhealthy valorant addiction that I haven't had the time to work on this. I apologize, dear Reader, for leaving you without the update and progress that you so desperately crave, I really do; I just don't have the willpower to actually commit to doing any one thing. The only reason I keep coming back (so far) to this transient and impermanent blog that may be deleted, removed, revamped without notice, is because I enjoy dumping my meaningless, overpersonal thoughts to a void with an audience of hopefully no one. I know from cloudflare that there is some traffic to this site for some reason, but why that is, I do not know.

I still want to do all the things that I've said I want to do, but first I need to do my school work. And that is something I really don't want to do. When I look around at my friends and peers and family, I see that they're all doing something useful. They either work, create things, or are studying and learning. When I look at myself, I see that I do nothing. I used to say that it's because I slept in, but it doesn't even matter. Whether I sleep 10 hours til noon or 2 hours until 6 AM, I still do the same amount of work. That is to say, I do no work. I instead find various ways to distract myself, either by watching whatever video with which the Youtube algorithm graces me, and then desperately refreshing the homepage when I've run out of interesting videos in the hope that it gives me something else I can do while avoiding my assignments

I want to watch the batman. I want to watch spiderman. i want to finish nhk. When I started reading it, I felt a little bit of a connection to satou, but since im not a hikki or neet or whatever (yet) and I still have somewhat of a future in the books for me, I don't plan on becoming one, but my behaviour and tendencies lately have got me thinking that I'm a lot more similar to this fictional character than I once thought.

Anyway, not to seem unhinged or to bore you too much, but thats basically why nothing's changed yet on my site. I still really want to get email up and running, and the guestbook thing or whatever its called, like where you leave a comment or whatever. the webring. the sister sites. I will do them once school's out. I promise. I guess that's all I had to say for this month. Oh yeah I updated the About Me page. And it's just as cringe and self-hating as this blog post. so lol.